What does a girl want?
Usually, most girls have hundreds and thousands of things that they want and have no trouble in getting them. However, I feel the opposite and have no idea what I want or what I want to do. I haven’t written a post in quite a while, mainly because I have been trying to figure out what I want from life, both long and short term. But it is more difficult than I could ever comprehend. Where do you start? I have a lot of envy for those people who already have a clear path that they are currently coasting along at their own speed. The past couple of months, I have taken time to think about this and trying to list my passions and what things give me the most pleasure in life.
Sometimes, being selfish is the best thing you can ever do. Not just for yourself, but others too. How can you be happy with someone else when you don’t feel happy with yourself and inside your mind. The mind is a complex and dangerous thing – especially the mind of a woman who doesn’t know what she wants! Doing things for yourself can be the most rewarding and gratifying thing you can do in this life. Life was not given to us to just coast along and pay for stuff you don’t need or want. So where am I going with this? As usual I have no idea and it’s exasperating. I just felt like writing. The best pieces of writing sometimes come from the heart and just putting pen to paper, or in this case, fingers to laptop.
In the last month or so I have felt a lot happier within myself and have kept myself busy, especially at the weekends by going out and reading A LOT!!! But I am probably at my happiest and most content when I have got my nose stuck in book after book. I have also purchased a teach yourself creative writing book to work through and try to develop my skills as a writer and also improve my vocabulary – as for an English Lit grad, mine is quite weak embarrassingly.
Writing is my favourite way to try and escape reality, but also to express myself. If anything is on your mind, the best way to get it out is through writing in my opinion. It really gets my creative juices flowing and definitely makes me more motivated. Does anyone else feel like this?? Since starting this blog, although my posts have been irregular, it has made me feel more confident in my writing abilities and able articulate my feelings in a better way, as those who know me well, know that I close up and hide how I truly feel.
I think I now know which path I want to take in life and it feels exciting to finally have a true goal to aim for and to start getting back on a track in a way I feel content and enthusiastic. Thank you for visiting my blog and I hope you enjoyed this small snapshot about my indecisiveness and watch this space!